I should have known better how a person he is. But I decided to give it a shot, not knowing why I did that. And I now regret, truly regret. Regret over everything I gave.
This relationship, I failed. Failed badly, if there's something worse than F9, I guess I can use that as a rating in this relationship. For once, I actually waited and hoped for a miracle that he can perform. But I realised it was all a dream that will never come to past. So I have decided to give up and get over it. The tears I have shed, all wasted. The hopes I had, all dashed. All that I have given, came to void. I lost. I concede defeat. All that I gotten out of this relationship = not treasured, not cherished, not trusted, accusation after accusation, unsincere apologies, empty promises. Given the most, failed most badly.